i have used every escort to explain my feelings. the only way for me to let go is to find it within myself that i honestly can let this go, to start being more positive and to be able to go on with our realtionship, it honestly has hurt me and i was in denial for time, and i still wish it wasnt true, but what happened, happened and there is honestly no way for me to go back in time and to fix it. so, i wi ll be like chelsa and learn how to just forget about it, because why dwell on it when there is nothing you can do about it..? my mom says being with him has taught me tolerence and there is a limit that only so much one person can take, but i honestly love him and will except the fact what has happened and learn to trust him all over again, with time . but i just hope he will not get used to the fact that i forgave him.

i am sleepy and i am waiting for him to call.

hopefully this will be a good night.